I am a Servant

It’s human nature to question God’s will, especially when it seems to oppose our own or happen not as we expected. Why did you take my job? Why is my life so difficult? Why did you take my loved one? Why is my marriage so difficult? Why do I have to deal with this hater at my school? Why can’t I have a family? Why does my child struggle so? Why can’t I find a spouse?

Mary was a virgin, betrothed to Joseph. God sent His angel Gabriel to tell Mary, “You will conceive in your womb and bear a son, and you shall call His name Jesus.”  She had everything to lose in obeying God’s will: her reputation, her marriage, her family, her wants and hopes.

Yet, her response was not, “Eh…I don’t know, God. It’s going to look like I cheated on Joseph. And I’m not sure I can raise the Son of God.” No. Instead, she said, “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to Your word.”

Mary looked beyond what conceiving the Son of God would do to her reputation and her life. She looked beyond her understanding. She looked beyond herself and looked unto God. She knew His plan was far greater than hers. She trusted Him.

She didn’t even know all the details, but still she said, “Okay God—I’m in.” She had no experience in motherhood, but still she said yes when asked to be the mother of the Son of the Most High!

I would have had so many questions. But she doesn’t continue to hammer with questions; she praises her Lord: “My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for He has looked on the humble estate of His servant. For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed; for He who is mighty has done great things for me, and holy is His name. And His mercy is for those who fear Him from generation to generation.” (Luke 1:46-50)

Is my attitude as willing and obedient as Mary’s or do I cast my buts all over God’s plan? Some days I doubt my ability to raise a son who has challenges. Some days I even doubt my ability to raise typical boys. Somehow, it seems easier to trust God when we know what we’re trusting Him for…and what everything will look like. But that’s where faith comes in.

Kate Battestelli writes, “…because [Mary] knew her God and she knew, by her obedience, He alone was responsible for the outcome.” Faith comes easier if you know Who you’re trusting. Doubt doesn’t only happen because our expectations change; it also happens when we forget who God is. The same God who hung the stars in the sky is the same God in control of our lives. The same God who had the power to part the Red Sea has power over each of our lives. The same God who sent His Son to provide the ultimate sacrifice for our sins is working in each of our lives. Not only can we be assured He’s working things out in the end, He’s also working in each moment of our life.

Are we content to stay at a job we hate because we know that is where God has us? Are we willing to endure heartache after heartache because we know God’s purpose is greater than ours? Are we willing to give up our expectations to make room for God’s plan? Are we willing to say, “Not my will, but Yours be done,” even when His seems like a terrible plan? Are we willing to give our life for His? Are we willing to give up our glory for His?

Are we willing to say: “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to Your word”?



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